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Could anyone tell me how to live in this world?
I feel I live in the world of reflection where everything is the same but not real.
What is real?
Real is 90% of pain and 10% of warmth.
Without pain, people do not feel any warmth, without warmth, life is nothing.
I feel pain, a lot of pain, but not warmth.
Warmth of my blood, I feel like it has been taken.
Warmth of others, I feel like it has never been givin.
I feel like my life is a piece of photograph; looks pretty but no depth, no warmth, so easy to destroy.
How could I get out the world?